Always aware

Sometimes a day goes by and here at home, nothing out of the ordinary happens except the awareness of how my life is brimming with a peace that’s hard to put into words. A day where I’m immersed in everything good…laughter, big smiles, and joy in my heart. When, even though I’m so far from family and friends I can still hear and feel their lives going on. I can still smell the scent of a newborn baby joining our family, the cool air as my daughter hunts squirrels, pride when one child puts her families needs before their wishes, a chuckle when my son texts me about something funny his dog did. “Guess what grandma“ phone calls, “I‘m putting on my wedding dress now“ phone calls and both happy and tearful phone calls to my mom. Funny dress up pictures of my nephew, instant messages from my step-daughter, excitement in my Aunt’s voice...all these far away but so close connections are a huge part of what keeps me happy, mixed with spending face to face catch up time with old friends and new friends, being closely connected with my in-laws down the road, out of town company, hunting, fishing, canning, writing, gardening, and ranger rides. My life being crested with an emotional, physical, spiritual and mental love poured over me by my husband in this lovely place where the sky is a little bit lower, the birds song a little bit sweeter, where the first thing you see when you walk outside is God’s majesty. This has to be a gift that I’m so not worthy of….but will continue to accept graciously, always being aware and thankful and always trying to give back what I’m so happy to feel.