When we imagined our wedding…it was small, quaint and it would be in the Penturen Church….the church in the pines… the first time Kevin took me there he said “This is where I want to marry you. It's been empty for years, alot of character and history...it's just the sweetest church you'll ever visit.
A few months ago I asked our pastor if he would marry us…in keeping a long story short, he said “No, the church constitution forbids him from marrying anyone who’s been divorced.” He went on to tell me some of the reasons… they hold marriage to a higher standard, they didn’t want to be known as the church who married divorced people, he even went on to tell me to proceed with caution AFTER he told me my reasons for divorce didn’t really matter because it was a blanket rule. I can pretty much assure you God was very sad about his response to me…anyway, that’s behind me…behind us… we are married now and God is very joyful about our union. My reason for telling this short narrative is because today in the mail there was a little blue postcard that said “ We prayed for you today.” signed by the pastor and the youth pastor of the church we USED to attend. We were probably next on the list to receive their prayers and I guess they want people to know that they prayed for them; however, the whole thing rubbed me the wrong way, maybe because after he declined to join us in marriage I wrote him a lengthy letter and never received a response of any kind. Talk about feeling like you don't matter! I’m very particular about who I want to pray for me and it almost freaks me out to think someone who doesn’t know me, know what I need, what I’m seeking or what’s vital to me would converse with God about me. Blanket rules are a lot like going down a list to see who gets prayed for next….unengaged, detached, impersonal and nothing I want to be a part of.
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